The post about this and that, or nothing really...

I have no pictures to post except this sweaty
running pic from Tuesday morning.  Enjoy!

I am tired.  I'm glad that tomorrow is my rest day.  I've run six days in a row, so it's a good tired. Although I was told not to run in them for a couple more weeks, I wore my orthotics for yesterday's run as well as today's.  Yesterday I did 6K with my 10K clinic, and today we did 5K.  The orthotics feel fine.  I mean I can feel the lump in the arch, but it doesn't bother me or anything.  I have my long run on Saturday morning.  Eighteen kilometers.  I  really want to wear the orthotics, but wonder if I need to get used to them more before I take them out on such a long run.  I figure that if they become uncomfortable, it would still feel better than having crampy toes.  Nothing feels worse than my crampy toes when I run.  And I can't imagine that if the orthotics cause some sort of discomfort, it will be anywhere near the pain that the toe cramps cause.  So my solution?  I'll do a 6K loop near my house and repeat it three times.  That way if I have to switch out my shoes, I'll have less than 6K to run before I can do it.

Thanks to all for you supportive comments in regards to my last post.  And just for the record, I do like what I see when I look in the mirror.  It's just accepting that person looking back at me is really me.  That is the piece that I need to keep working on.   It's almost like I feel like I'm living someone else's life.  I wish I did this earlier in my life, but I'm not going to dwell.  Losing weight is hard work and extremely stressful.  But it was way more work and stressful being morbidly obese.  And more expensive!  I'm sure I spent twice as much money on food pre-weight loss than I do now.

It is a very freeing feeling to be at my goal.  I'm able to put my winter clothes away for the summer and be confident that I will fit into them next winter.  How can I be so confident you may ask? Well, I'm going to continue to run and train for a full marathon in the fall.  And I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that I can ever become lax on my eating.  The way I eat now is the way I will eat forever.  That's just the way it has to be and I'm okay with that. There was a time in my life where I would never have agreed to give up carbs or sugar.  I would have fought tooth and nail to keep them in my diet.

I tried Weight Watchers many times, and it never worked for me because I don't have the will power to have "just one".  I'm not knocking WW. We just weren't compatible   I fell off the diet wagon too many times to count while attempting to  follow WW.  It was too inclusive, which is good for some, just not me.  What I needed, but never recognized many years ago, was structure. Dr. Poon's Metabolic Diet provided that for me.  It's similar to many low carb, low sugar, low fat, high protein diets.  And it definitely worked for me.  It was very restrictive, especially for Phase 1 (which I chose to stay on for 6 months).  And I also became very accustom to eating that way.  That is why Paleo is working so well for me now that I am on maintenance.  It's similar to Dr. Poon, just cleaner.

This Saturday is my high school reunion.  I'm going to have to get a new outfit from Reitman's to wear!  It will definitely be interesting.  Seeing people that I haven't seen in 25 years.  I wonder if I'll recognize the ones that I'm not friends with on Facebook.  Should make for an interesting afternoon for sure.  I'm off to bed to read the rest of my trashy novel.  It looks like Kate has a secret that could destroy everything between her and Aidan, but I'm confident that everything will work out in the end!