I run, I strength train, I practice yoga, I cycle, I eat clean and I enjoy wine time. I underwent brachioplasty (upper arm lift) and upper, outer thigh liposuction on 22/09/15. Lover of humor; the good, the bad and the dirty kind. Was able to finally get my weight under control and I'm half my size from my highest weight. In my 3rd year of maintenance. First Nation Canadian. My son is my heart. This is my life in selfies...
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Friday, February 28, 2014
The post about many thanks, therapy and Pandora's box
Some words of wisdom.
I am speechless. I don't even know where to start except to say, thank you all for your lovely comments, emails, Facebook messages, Tweets, Instagram comments. I am truly overwhelmed by your outpouring of support. As much as I'd like to thank you each individually, I am too emotional to do that. But please know that there is nothing more helpful for me right now than to know that so many people care about me. I appreciate you all.
I have thought long and hard about my upcoming therapy. Although I'm not going to share anything deeply personal, I am going to be sharing my experiences in therapy with you. If it can help someone else, it's worth it. My first session is March 5th.
When I was obese, I used to think that my life would be perfect if I could lose weight. How very incorrect that statement is. I will admit, my life is better. I can do lots of things I never dreamed of doing when I was overweight. But mentally, it's not so cut and dry. I always heard about self image issues after weight loss, I just never imagined they would be so debilitating.
I had a great talk with my supervisor on Thursday morning. He was so awesome and so supportive. Not only is my depression affecting my family, but it's also affecting my clients. I know that I am not as driven at my job right now as I normally am, and that's not okay. My clients depend on me. That was another reason why I knew I had to take action and work on healing. People count on me.
I'm not gonna lie. I am scared. Therapy is going to open Pandora's box. There is a lot of issues from my past that I have never dealt with. I know it will be cleansing and freeing in the end, but getting to that point will be hard.
I'm keeping this post short. I am emotionally drained. This week has been harrowing to say the least. But I feel more hopeful now than I have in a long time. I've been down this road before and I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Just knowing that I have taken the first few steps on my journey to get there has already lightened the heaviness of my heart a tiny bit. That's still moving forward, right? Have a great weekend:)
