- Meanwhile, yesterday on Instagram...
- It's a backward kinda day. I'm posting this pic before my running pic even though I ran before having coffee. So this is my recovery coffee for #coffeetime. Had to get moving just after 5am because I've an early massage appointment followed by a dental appointment in Scarborough followed by a client appointment in Toronto. Busy day! And I need to get into the shower because full body massage means lots of extra grooming this morning. I really need this though. I'm feeling super stiff everywhere. It's Friday!!!
- This morning's run was completely ass dragging. I lay in bed till just before 5am talking myself into running. I'm glad I dragged myself out of bed and dressed in my gear right away. It was a caffeine free run. No coffee was tough but I missed that window of opportunity by laying around for 1/2 an hour. Lesson learned. Was out my door just after 5 and it was hard but I got it done.
- My reward? Deep tissue massage. Hurt like the devil, but the toga party that followed was awesome. I've been seeing my massage therapist for almost 3 years. He's known me since I just started maintenance. He told me today that he can tell I'm working hard. That means something coming from him because he knows my body and my muscle knots better than I do. There's definite muscle definition forming. That's exciting to hear...
- I'm lying in the dark as I write this. No real reason why. Maybe I'm trying to be mysterious:-) So Friday's final countdown. Busy day that was not as warm as it was supposed to be. Run, massage, dentist (still in the no cavity club), client birthday dinner at the Mandarin in Toronto, shopping, blogging, case logs and work emails. My weekend has officially begun. That means I also had #winetime.
- My food today was plentiful. I went to the Mandarin with every intention of pigging out (on as much shrimp as I could stomach), but alas, I only managed 2 plates. And one was salad. The other was meat and vegetables. I definitely ate enough today, but again, I didn't eat all my calories. Honestly though? I've never counted calories. I just log my food for a guideline. To make sure I eat enough.
- Today I scored big time in the clearance section of Smart Set. Everything is 50% off the lowest ticketed price. So I bought 4 skirts, 4 shorts, 3 dresses, 1 pair of jeans, 2 tops, a white jean jacket, a jean vest and 2 bracelets for $100. All the shorts were $3.50. And most other items were $5. I think the white jean jacket was the most expensive item at $10. That's fecken crazy. And although the shorts are obviously summer wear, the dresses can be worn with tights. I continue to be a shopping goddess. Bed time. Gym in the morning then I have to get my dad to the doctor for noon. G'nite beautiful people...
- Meanwhile, yesterday on Instagram...
- Choking down a protein fruit smoothie before 5am is harder than you think. I just want coffee. My body feels so much better for having rested it yesterday. I'm ready to crush the gym this morning. Sweating my ass off is my top priority. I'll start with 20 mins of HIIT and tell Tony to work me extra hard. It will be my last session with him till my stitches come out. So I'll be doing nothing for a couple weeks. Gotta get my gear on and move it. I'm in the office afterwards. Coffee time will be much welcome in a couple hours...
- Its finally #coffeetime. Got a great sweat on this morning. Had to come home and take off my gym top because it was soaked and I was fecken cold. I've still got the chills. Wonder what I'm going to do in the winter. Tony worked me hard. Told him I needed to go off with a bang. So I got a good solid workout in.
- HIIT ✔
- Upper body ✔
- Legs ✔
- Core ✔
- Uncontrollable sobbing ✔
- No mercy ✔
- Just the way it should be. He also did a bit of boxing stuff with me and boy do I have a lot of work to do. Boxing is fecken hard yo! I was only doing jabs holding a 10 pound ball for 30 seconds and my deltoids were screaming. Once I'm back from my surgery, upper body is going to be my focus. Tony said I'm the only client he's ever had where legs were not an issue from the start. My lower body is strong but my upper body and core are weak. So that's what I'll be doing through the fall once I recover. Working my upper body and core hard. Can't wait:-(
- Today's last word is done with Smitty draped over my bladder. She's gonna have to move in ten minutes! Posting my legs for #thickthighthursday. Wearing a dress in today's heat was a touch messy. In the office it was all good. Comfortable temperature. But in the community? I stuck to every thing. Leather and bare legs do not mix! This is likely the last day I'll rock the summer dress. Leggings and tights and jeans coming right up. And leather. Let's not forget the leather.
- So my food from today. I'm leaving 600+ calories on the table. I'm tired of eating. Therefore I'm done. When I was morbidly obese I ate out of boredom all the time. I consciously do something else if I'm bored and thinking about food. Although on any given day, and several times a day, I dream of processed carbs. It's the texture of them that I miss the most. Having a mouthful of crackers or chips or fresh bread from the oven. I could eat that all day. But I won't. The struggle continues to be real...
- It's #coffeetime and I'm beat. I may actually rest today. My body aches. Most namely my booty and hamstrings. I've my trainer tomorrow morning and I think I need to rub all the Voltaren on me in prep for tomorrow. I hate not giving 100% at the gym. Gotta stop beating myself up when I need to rest. Haven't rested since Friday so I think I need to give myself a break.
- My arm surgery is less than a week away. It's crazy how quickly that time has passed. Gotta get my prescriptions filled and stock up on polysporin and gauze. Today I have a lot of paper work to do and clients to touch base with. I spent all day yesterday in my car. I'm going to spend as little time as possible in my car today...
- It's #sunroofselfie and #winetime together. Let's talk about the sunroof selfie first. See my upper thigh fat? This time next week that will be gone. Extreme weight loss means that sometimes you're left with problem areas that no matter how much you work, you can't make them go away. Those areas for me are my arms and upper outer thighs. I'm a firm believer that if plastic surgery will build confidence, go for it. No matter what your body issues are.
- I record my progress for me. If you wanna come along for the ride, you're welcome to. But this is my online diary, which happens to be public. I will never apologize for taking pictures of myself. I write a blog and have an Instagram account for me.
- When you look like I used to for the majority of your life and you worked your ass off to get healthy, I think you earned the right to post as many pictures of your success as you want to. And that rule applies to anyone. Your platform, your content, your rules.
- If you want to unfollow me, do so. No explanation is needed. Telling me I'm a self absorbed narcissist is futile. I know I am. Every time I see myself I am speechless because I never imagined in a million years that I would look the way I do. So you're preaching to the choir.
- It's taken me years to work on my confidence and more days than not I'm still down on myself. Something I work on everyday is my self esteem. Losing all that weight did not fix my head or my body image issues. They're still there. But everyday I consciously work on self love. Seeing myself helps me to accept the body that I have now. My brain needs to catch up with the rest of me. Because in my mind, I'm still morbidly obese. But I'm getting there. Slowly but surely I'm getting there. So I'll continue to post whatever I want on my forums.
- I appreciate my followers and the amazing support you all give me. I'm not the best at responding to comments, but I read them all and you guys rock:-)
- Today's last word is with Smitty. Funny thing about taking a rest day. I can't seem to stop eating. Although, I'm not gonna lie. My snack calories? Mostly wine. Interesting observation though. When I'm not active, I want to eat. When I am active, I can't get enough calories into me for the day. I feel so much better for having rested and I'm going to kill it at the gym tomorrow morning. HIIT and all. It will be my last work out with Tony for a few weeks. I'm going to miss him. He cracks me up!
- A couple body observations made today. I believe my thigh gap is officially gone. I've developed quite the inner thigh muscle and my thighs touch when I stand tall. They don't rub when I walk tho. I'm a touch bow legged. And the checkered top I wore today? I can't button it across my bosom. I haven't worn it since spring. It's because of my Hulk like pecs, shoulders and back. Fuck that and the miniature pony you rode in on sir! (Doesn't make much sense to put this here, but I saw it on Facebook and wanted to incorporate it in my post somehow because it cracked me up) I'm still boobless:-( Pic above; case and point! I'm off to bed. Up early for the gym...
