Sunday, November 25, 2012

Unrecognizable me

Checkout the frost on my headband, eyebrows
and chin...it was COLD!!!!!!!!

This weekend's run was tricky. Yesterday I was better at getting out for my long run, but it's still hard to do longer runs alone.  Only one weekend left and I can run with the half marathon clinic for long runs.  Really looking forward to this because with the cooler, winter weather, I'm basically alone on the trail.  Except for a few bikers and dog walkers, there are very few runners out.  I also had to be conscious of the ice patches.  That would truly suck if I fell and broke something.  What a nightmare for me!  And this morning was just cold and snowy.  Getting out is half the battle. Once I'm out and running, I always feel better!  It took a much longer time to warm up this morning once I started running.

Last week at work, a few people approached me and told me that they didn't recognize me.  They would have only seen me the previous week, but for whatever reason, they insist that I look different from last week to this week.  I don't think so.  Maybe my hair was different or something, but unrecognizable?  Not likely.  I do get ignored by people every once in a while who haven't seen me in over a year.  That I get.  I do look very different from last summer to now.  When I see myself reflected in a store window, I often don't recognize that person as me.  My husband asked me how that made me feel.  I'm not gonna lie, it's strange. Getting used to the way I look is going to take some time.  I still see myself as a 300 pound woman.  Regardless of whether I am needing to accept myself as an obese woman or a "normal" sized woman, self acceptance is an on-going process.

May 2011
November 2012

Last night we went to the Flamborough Santa Claus Parade.  It was extremely cold and Julien didn't feel great.  He complained of a sore stomach pretty much the whole time we were there.  My feet were numb, Jules was under the weather, and it was cold, cold, cold.  We ended up going home after a half an hour.  That's too bad because the parade is so nice.  It's all lit up with lots of lights and bands.  Perhaps we will fair better next year.

Waiting for the parade to begin.
My brother-in-law is also in this
pic, but refused to let me post it
with him in it... 

This afternoon I went to my friends Elin and Scott's house for a Grey Cup party.  I didn't actually stay for the game, but I was there long enough to lose to Elin's SIL Heather at ping pong.  I also enjoyed some delicious Jackson Triggs Shiraz and some roasted almonds.  They had lots of yummy treats including these...



Elin works at a cupcake shop called Bitten and these were picked up for the Grey Cup party.  Now these were not tempting in the least and I'll tell you why. First off, it's been many, many, many months since I have had any kind of processed carbs.  And it has also been many, many, many months since I have had processed sugar.  I eat carbs and sugar found in fruits and veggies. That's it.  Having one of these would have made me feel sick, no doubt.  And I would have spent the night on the toilet.  So not worth it.  It is also not fuel for my body.  It is junk.  And junk I do not need.  I need good wholesome food that will keep me running my absolute best.  Running and not weighing 300 pounds ever again is my motivation.  What's yours?

8 comments:

  1. Nothing good comes from eating processed sugar - nothing. Regardless of how pretty it looks, sugar takes away from health rather than adding to it like real food does. Take care.

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  2. You look lovely!

    Those cupcakes!! I have a massive thing for cupcake designs..I just love checking them out. lol

    It definitely is getting cold and windy out there. I was excited for outdoors running this winter, but I'm just not sure I'm strong enough to handle that!

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  3. I am always scared of slipping on ice too. Be careful out there! Wow, what a difference in your face. That was what a lot of people noticed in me. I was so bloated looking before I started losing weight. You look great!

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  4. I don't know how you run in that cold. Inspiring girl. And way to keep away from the processed sugars. I am still not as clean as I should be on my eating and really need to examine that and nip it in the bud.

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  5. You look very different from 2011! Awesome running in the cold - be very careful on the ice ~ its no fun to be laid up with a sprain or worse. My Motivation? Never being trapped in a body that doesn't match who I am or what I believe again! Oh and being fast on the bike - that is also motivation!

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  6. I find it funny when someone says they don't recognize me..it seems to be happening to me as well and I feel I look very similar to what I was just a little deflated..lol!

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  7. I am starting to allow my photo to be taken more often and actually sharing those photos as well. I do not recognize the person in the photos very often but I do like having them to compare to older photos. It is hard when we have an image in our heads about what we look like and who we are....and then find that changing.

    Running in the cold is still something I am not used to but I need to get back to it soon.

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  8. I can't wait to run with you more too! Running with others makes a HUGE difference. I finally found my "bite me" zone on the last 19K solo long run I did before race day. Yeah, I was more than just a lil tempted to call a cab! lol

    I totally agree with yah weight loss does take some getting used to. I'm still buying pants that are too big for me cuz I'm not used to it and STILL hate trying things on in stores.

    My short term motivation is being able to keep up when running on the cruise in 2 months.. oh and maybe looking a lil less flabby in that two piece *sigh* Must start some weights/crunches/etc. (Now that I've posted that publicly I must REALLY do it) :)

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