Sunday, November 25, 2012

Unrecognizable me

Checkout the frost on my headband, eyebrows
and was COLD!!!!!!!!

This weekend's run was tricky. Yesterday I was better at getting out for my long run, but it's still hard to do longer runs alone.  Only one weekend left and I can run with the half marathon clinic for long runs.  Really looking forward to this because with the cooler, winter weather, I'm basically alone on the trail.  Except for a few bikers and dog walkers, there are very few runners out.  I also had to be conscious of the ice patches.  That would truly suck if I fell and broke something.  What a nightmare for me!  And this morning was just cold and snowy.  Getting out is half the battle. Once I'm out and running, I always feel better!  It took a much longer time to warm up this morning once I started running.

Last week at work, a few people approached me and told me that they didn't recognize me.  They would have only seen me the previous week, but for whatever reason, they insist that I look different from last week to this week.  I don't think so.  Maybe my hair was different or something, but unrecognizable?  Not likely.  I do get ignored by people every once in a while who haven't seen me in over a year.  That I get.  I do look very different from last summer to now.  When I see myself reflected in a store window, I often don't recognize that person as me.  My husband asked me how that made me feel.  I'm not gonna lie, it's strange. Getting used to the way I look is going to take some time.  I still see myself as a 300 pound woman.  Regardless of whether I am needing to accept myself as an obese woman or a "normal" sized woman, self acceptance is an on-going process.

May 2011
November 2012

Last night we went to the Flamborough Santa Claus Parade.  It was extremely cold and Julien didn't feel great.  He complained of a sore stomach pretty much the whole time we were there.  My feet were numb, Jules was under the weather, and it was cold, cold, cold.  We ended up going home after a half an hour.  That's too bad because the parade is so nice.  It's all lit up with lots of lights and bands.  Perhaps we will fair better next year.

Waiting for the parade to begin.
My brother-in-law is also in this
pic, but refused to let me post it
with him in it... 

This afternoon I went to my friends Elin and Scott's house for a Grey Cup party.  I didn't actually stay for the game, but I was there long enough to lose to Elin's SIL Heather at ping pong.  I also enjoyed some delicious Jackson Triggs Shiraz and some roasted almonds.  They had lots of yummy treats including these...

Elin works at a cupcake shop called Bitten and these were picked up for the Grey Cup party.  Now these were not tempting in the least and I'll tell you why. First off, it's been many, many, many months since I have had any kind of processed carbs.  And it has also been many, many, many months since I have had processed sugar.  I eat carbs and sugar found in fruits and veggies. That's it.  Having one of these would have made me feel sick, no doubt.  And I would have spent the night on the toilet.  So not worth it.  It is also not fuel for my body.  It is junk.  And junk I do not need.  I need good wholesome food that will keep me running my absolute best.  Running and not weighing 300 pounds ever again is my motivation.  What's yours?