|Looking dazed and confused...|
like I just saw a possum!
The last few mornings have not been pleasant runs for me. It's freaking cold at 5:45am!!!!! Spring my a**! I'm so done with the cold that I'm about to put a hit out on that damn groundhog who promised us an early spring. I mean, yes, there are signs of spring everywhere. The lighter mornings, the (shudder) possums I see during my early morning runs, the birds singing so lovely...Just warm up for the love of all that is holy already! It has been a long and cold "running" winter. I want to stop wearing my 3 season jacket, and just run in a long sleeved top in the mornings! Is that too much to ask? Apparently so.
I have been eating like a hog lately. Well, maybe just today. I ran this morning, had my usual hard boiled eggs and coffee for breakfast, then wanted to eat my own limbs by mid morning. I had an early lunch of grilled chicken and broccoli, then actually walked to Rabba and purchased a half chicken for a late afternoon snack at 4:30pm. I ate the whole thing at my desk before driving from Toronto to Hamilton for my 7pm physio appointment. I just finished my dinner of baked salmon with salad. I'm finally feeling satisfied but wished I had made sugar-free jello last night. I feel like having something sweet. I'll just wait it out and go to bed early for a change. That's mainly how I deal with cravings, I go to sleep. I can't obsess over food while I'm sleeping! By morning my craving will be gone.
Tuesday is my next weigh-in with Dr. Stephen and I have no idea where I am weight wise. I don't weigh myself in between weigh-ins. And, at this point, I don't care. I have been on Phase 1 for almost 5 weeks. The only thing that has happened is that I got smaller. I went down a whole size. After my last weigh-in where I gained 1.5 pounds of "fat", I realized that I just may not be able to drop anymore weight. I'm okay with that. I know I'm gaining muscle, even if the doctor suggests I'm not. I've been running 40K per week while eating lean protein, leafy greens, and veggies grown above ground! A lean runner's body may not be in my future. Or it may just happen much slower than I'd like.
I was on maintenance prior to choosing to go back on Phase 1. Dr. Stephen insisted I go on maintenance saying that since I was "athletic", I'd likely never reach goal because the scale wouldn't take into account my muscle mass. It's very confusing the mixed messages I get. Anywho, I'm interested to see what the scale will say on Tuesday. Whatever it says, I am at peace with myself. My size 7 pants are getting looser.
I'm done Phase 1 on the 13th. I'll go back to eating Phase 2 at that time. I'll just be starting to get into running longer distances, speed work and hill training for my half marathon in June. I'm looking forward to fruit again, but I think I'll keep dairy out of my diet permanently. I just feel better dairy free, and I'm not that attached to cheese, or yogurt. I gave up processed carbs and sugar for good, I can give up dairy no problem. I'll just be adding fruit (minus bananas), all veggies (except white potatoes), and some nuts after the 13th. Oh and of course, red wine on the weekend. After all, I've got to have something to look forward to!
|Oh, the vulgar language!!!! But, it's how I feel when people ask me what|
my secret to weight-loss is. There is no secret!