|He's such a ham!|
So long ago. Was it in a dream, was it just a dream? I know, yes I know. Seemed so very real, seemed so real to me. These are the lyrics for John Lennon's song "#9 Dream". I heard this song today during my commute home and it reminded me of the vivid dream I was having two years ago. I was morbidly obese at the time, but I was dreaming about being thin. And the dreams felt so real that when I woke in the morning, I was convinced I was a normal sized person. The way I felt in those dreams has always stayed with me. These days, I need to pinch myself so I know I'm not dreaming. Now that I'm at goal, I am living my dream. I never thought I would be where I am right now.
Today was a confidence booster for me. I did something totally out of my comfort zone. I wore a dress to work. The first time I wore this dress, it went down to my knees. After washing it, it was shorter than I remembered. I wasn't too confident in it until the compliments started rolling in. I think I have chubby legs. I got so many compliments on my legs today my head started to get big! I also saw a few people I haven't seen in a very long time. One didn't recognize me at first, one did an obvious double take, and one freaked out. I forget that I look so different to others and it always takes me aback.
|I should have worn boy shorts underneath!!!!|
I'm a thong wearer. I don't know how I ever wore brief style panties before. Once I started wearing thongs, I felt so free! Today I had to wear hipster panties because I was wearing the dress and just felt too exposed in the thong I had on at first. It's a good thing I changed from a thong to a hipster. When I was pumping gas this morning, I pulled a Marilyn. It was windy and my dress went flying up. Trust me, I did not look nearly as glamorous, but the construction workers who saw me got an eyeful.
Yesterday I had an appointment with my general practitioner, Dr. Pitt. He was quite surprised by my transformation which puzzled me. The last time I was in his office was mid-December. I weighed 2.5 pounds more than I do now according to my chart. He did a double take because he said I looked so different. When I look back on my belly pictures, I was a couple of sizes bigger in December even though my weight was almost the same as it is now. Dr. Pitt said my face looked different too though. Regardless, he was very pleased with my progress and even more pleased that I have more or less maintained my weight over the past 6 months. No one knows my struggles with obesity better than Dr. Pitt. He witnessed my crazy yo-yo dieting over the past 35 years. He asked me what was different this time around and I just told him that I finally got it. Losing weight takes hard work and commitment, maintenance takes hard work and commitment. They are exactly the same thing. What I did to lose weight is what I have to do to maintain my loss. It's as simple as that.
I had a physio appointment today. I had my feet stripped (which hurts like hell), then they used the ultra sound on them. The ultra sound stimulates the tissue and increases blood flow. This is a treatment method for Metatarsalgia. I usually get this treatment once per week and usually the day before my long run. I'm running 16K up and down the rail trail tomorrow morning. The jury's still out on whether or not the ultra sound is at all helpful. I'm also anxious about wearing my orthotics. I'm going to be super bummed if my toes cramp tomorrow.
|The ultra sound. A good shot of how curved my toes are.|
This next week is my last clinic week. It's hard to believe that 10 weeks has gone by so quickly. I'm not likely teaching a clinic again until fall. Although I like teaching clinics, I'm glad to be able to do my own thing again and run on my own schedule. Four months of marathon training starts in two weeks. I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I'm going to train on my own, but I'll be training at the same time as the marathon clinic at the Running Room. I'll always have the option to do long runs, speed work and hills with the clinic if I choose to. They do those sessions on the free run days which are Wednesday evening and Sunday morning. I'll likely need the support around the hills and the speed work. I hate doing hill repeats, but I hate speed work even more:(
Tomorrow my girlfriend Elin is having a Paleo BBQ for my family. It will be fun and I love that my friends support my lifestyle. It really means a lot. On Sunday I'll be having my father, my brother and his family over for a father's day BBQ. I'm making pork souvlaki and lots of grilled veggies. I'll also make baked potatoes for my dad and brother since my dad is a potato fanatic. Only five more weeks and I'm off for my summer vacation. Lots to do at work before then. This week I want to catch up on blog commenting. I haven't been leaving as many comments as I like. I'm reading, just not commenting. It's because I'm reading blogs on my phone and it's so difficult to comment from my phone. Not a good excuse, and I don't like excuses! So I am making a concerted effort to park myself in front of the computer over the next couple of days to comment. See what happens when you start taking better care of yourself? You sleep instead of blogging. G'night all!