Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Fight the good fight

After my run on Saturday.  I like this photo because I
 think I look BADASS! I don't really though.

Yesterday I had a full day and most of it was spent in my car.  I drove out to Pickering in the morning for my monthly weigh-in at Dr.  Poon's clinic.  I was up 1.5 pounds from last month.  I am not even remotely concerned and I'll tell you why.  That is what happens when you don't drink enough water.  You start to retain it.  I have been much better at drinking my water since yesterday.  I probably got about 10 cups into me which was quite a feat.  Especially since I drove out to Peterborough after my weigh-in.  I had to stop several times at gas stations and coffee shops, but it was all good.  Gave me a reason to get out of the car.  I was stiff from my 16K the day before.

I saw Dr. Marmina instead of Dr. Stephen because it was Monday.  Dr. Stephen isn't in on Monday.  Dr. Marmina was very impressed with me and commented on my "athletic" resting heart rate.  Then we chatted for about 15 minutes about running.  I told him that even though my weight can stay the same for weeks on end, I keep getting smaller because my clothes are once again loose.  He said that is because I'm gaining muscle and it's making me leaner.  I like his theory! That being said, my size 8 jeans are getting loose around the waist and in the leg and butt area.  I need to purchase another pair (not Joe Fresh because I think they are sized big) to compare.  I'm just too cheap right now because I still have pants that fit.  Maybe I'll go shopping in a couple of weeks.

For whatever reason, I cannot add captions to these photos today. Here's a side by side. The left I weighed 295. The right was taken yesterday at 169 pounds. I'm, wearing my size 8 jeans which are  looser in the legs than they were the first time I wore them 2 weeks ago.

Strange again with the captions.  Anywho, A recent side view beside an old picture (obviously).  I already have a good gap in my waist in my size 8 jeans.  See a number on the scale is not always a way to gauge your progress.  Just say'in!

I saw my dentist yesterday and everyone was shocked by my appearance.  The funny thing is I just saw them 6 months ago and there's only about a 30 pound difference in my weight since the last time I was there. For whatever reason, they couldn't remember that I lost a lot of weigh the last time I was there.  It even said in my chart that I had lost 95 pounds (back in  July).  They were looking at me like they hadn't seen me in over a year.  They had to update the head shot of me on file.  The old one was about six years old and definitely does not look like me anymore.  I should have asked them to email it to me for comparison.

I supervise a Child and Youth Worker student from George Brown College.  We were talking today about me doing something that is out of my comfort zone.  More information on this to come soon. He was offering me support and pointed out that everything I have done to get me to where I am today is out of my comfort zone.  That is absolutely true.  I was always the morbidly obese person who was most comfortable hiding away at home and comforting myself with food.  Then I decided to take control of my life.  I adopted an eating plan that I can do forever, began writing a blog, then began a sport that completely changed my life.  I have absolutely gone waaaaaaaaay out of my comfort zone.  I am no longer private and haven't been for a long time.  People actually read and care about what I have to say.  This still amazes me.  I am not a very interesting person!

I started to write this blog to keep myself accountable.  Now I write it to encourage and help others who may benefit from my experiences.  It has become a part of me and I can't imagine not doing it now.  I share much more on this blog than I do with people close to me.  They all read my blog and it's easier for me to express my feelings in writing.  Thank you for reading and letting me use this as an outlet for my inner most thoughts.  It's very therapeutic, along with running of course. Although I (mostly) continue to write for others, it makes me feel good to know that I "inspire" and "motivate" others.  It will make me feel even better when I see you all reach your own personal goals whether they be weight-loss or other.  Keep fighting the good fight.  You are all so worth it and remember, if I can do it, so can you!