Thursday, December 13, 2012

The post where I officially go on maintenance

This morning I went to the Pickering clinic to see Dr. Stephen.  I lost 7 pounds last month which brings my total weight loss to 122 pounds.  I weighed in at 167 pounds, 8 pounds above my "goal weight".  Dr Stephen and I decided that I would begin the maintenance program today, but I did admit that I wouldn't be eating much different than I do now.  If I drop more weight, then it's meant to be.  I think my body will stop losing naturally on it's own.  Trust me I still have plenty of junk in my trunk.  And besides, I don't think I can eat more than I eat right now.

I'm gonna be completely honest...I eat constantly.  I believe that I eat more now that I have ever eaten in my life, it's just the kind of foods I choose to eat that are the difference.  I am living proof that not all calories are created equal.  Don't ask me how many I eat in a day, I have no idea.  I just always eat until I am full and I have about three or four snacks a day as well.  Snacks are usually fruit or carrot sticks.  Sometimes popcorn.  And before a run, I'll eat an energy bar if my last meal was more than three hours prior to my run.

I'm still off the processed carbs, and that's not gonna change.  Eating them scares me. I haven't had any for so long, that I have this vision of eating a slice of bread, then finishing off the entire loaf in one sitting.  It could happen.  I've done it before.  And I just know that if I let one carby thing past my lips, I'll suddenly be a full on addict again.  I know, I know, I'm a little unstable and I need counseling.  Agreed!  Maybe it wouldn't go down that way, but this is my nightmare and I'm painting it the way I see it!

My goal was to get into a size more than to a number on the scale.  That goal was met yesterday. I went to Value Village and not only scored a great red leather coat for $12.99, but I also bought a pair of real skinny jeans (size 10), and a pair of size 8 jeans that were gonna be my "goal jeans". When I got them home, both pairs fit.  So I am officially wearing a single digit pant size!  Yay me! Pictures to follow.  I just got back from running and don't feel like trying on stuff right now.

Today was a special day.  I met up with an old college friend that I haven't seen in 15 years.  She has only ever known me obese.  She was just floored when she saw me and couldn't believe the difference in me.  She's always been beautiful and looks exactly the same as she did in college.  I can't believe that she has a teen aged son and a tween daughter!  She looks like a teenager herself.  Anyway, it was nice to catch up and I hope we connect again soon.  So much to talk about and we had so little time.

I took my car in for winter service today and my mechanic said he didn't recognize me when I walked into the shop. He only saw me a month ago.  I don't think I look any different from last month. But he said it took him a minute to register who I was.  Sometimes for fun, he gets me to show my before picture to other customers in the shop.  He loves to tell them about how hard I've worked and loves to hear about my running.  He, along with everyone else in my life, is in denial. He can't remember me being as big as I was. I'm back there tomorrow and I'll show him the comparison photos below.  I can hear him now, "Unbelievable Leigh, just unbelievable".  He says unbelievable a lot!  I have to agree.  I never believed I'd get to where I am today.  But here I am beginning a new chapter in my life.  Sounds exciting and adventurous!  Then why am I so scared?

I likely weighed about 295 here.
Taken tonight just before my
clinic run.  I look tired because I am.


21 comments:

  1. awesome job.. I just went into the pickering office to weigh in this morning and for my first two weeks on the diet I lost 10.8lbs 10.2 was fat loss and .6 was water so I am super excited about that! thanks for sharing your lovely journey, it is truly inspirational.

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  2. Congratulations for not only getting onto maintenance but for the whole process you have gone through. I can really understand being scared, I feel the same too and I am not at goal yet. But you have such determination that I truly believe you will do just fine.

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  3. Leigh, this is another awesome post. I believe that the reason you look so "different" is due in large part to your running AND your diet. You have said you are not counting calories and I totally believe you because if you were on a calorie restrictive diet combined with all the running you are doing, you would look like a recently released prisoner of war from a starvation death camp. I'm not trying to be funny, I'm trying to make a point. Calorie restrictive diets that include processed carbs tend to make the dieters look older as they lose the body fat. Whereas you are looking younger. It is my opinion that your regular exercise coupled with the nutritional eating plan you have been doing is optimizing your Human Growth Hormone (hGH) levels. The short version is you are reversing the aging process. Maybe a book on Optimizing Human Growth Hormone (hGH) levels through proper diet and exercise by Leigh C. is in your future? You have the before and after pics to make your case:)

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  4. Congratulations, you are amazing. You lost an entire person in such a short time. I hope I can get off the carbs myself. I don't care a thing about sugar but carbs have been the bane of my existence.

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  5. Congrats Leigh! You have worked so hard to reach this stage and I'm sure it's just the beginning of greater things for you =D

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  6. You are looking absolutely FANTASTIC!!!!! Well done on your huge achievement:)

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  7. I understand the fear you speak of. We are all afraid of the unknown and this is new territory. We were comfortable for so long in our obesity; we knew what to do; we knew how it felt. Those who self-sabotage are just going back to what's familiar. We have to change our mindset and view maintenance as a learning experience that we are looking forward to. There's no need to ever go back. I applaud your success and your willingness to help the rest of us with your story. Well done.

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  8. Size 8! Victory! You look awesome! Congrats - well deserved maintenance!

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  9. Awesomesauce...maintenance and a size 8..you rock!

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  10. Congrats!!! So exciting and scary to reach this place. Takes each day as it comes and have a lot of weight maintenance mentors out there.

    I found the first year of maintenance to be like a huge puzzle taking days to complete. Most pieces fit but if they do not I stop and take the time to figure out what's going on.


    I know you'll approach the next phase very mindfully

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    1. Heh, heh , heh. using voice recognition to type sorry for the grammatical errors

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  11. You are truly an inspiration! I think as long as you're eating all the right things, your body WILL naturally settle where it wants to be. :)

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  12. I think you are very smart to continue on as you have been doing. Your body will definitely stop losing when it is time. That is my UN-expert opinion. :)

    You are scared because you are going into something new. Trust me when I say that maintenance is just doing what you've already been doing for a full year although you may make adjustments along the way. Congrats on doing so well. Yes, you are an inspiration.

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  13. Congrats on your achievements. You look great!

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  14. Congratulations!! You look fantastic!

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  15. You are such an incredible inspiration. Thank you for sharing yourself so openly, when when there is fear about the future.

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  16. Way to go!! I really admire all of your hard work and dedication.

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