Wednesday, July 17, 2013

The post about how much I hate humidity and being an anxious eater

Me at 6:45 am.  My pace was a pitiful 7:20 per kilometer.

This morning's run was BRUTAL.  I was supposed to do a 10K tempo run (a tempo run is faster than your comfortable run), and only made it to 8.5K before I had to pack it in.  I started to feel light-headed and dizzy.  I fueled up with energy powder before hand, but I just could not handle the humidity.  Even at 5:30 am the air was super thick and gross.  My tempo run was run at a pretty bad pace and I'm sure that near the end I was just shuffling along.  The run sucked.  The good news is that I can make it up on Saturday.  I'm slotted to do 8K tomorrow, so I'll do 6K, then I'll do the 10K on Saturday when I'm supposed to do the 6K. Hope that's not too confusing.  By the time I got home, my running clothes were soaked.  Like you could ring them out soaked.  So, so icky.

Today was a hot one.  I was in the office all day which meant I was pretty cold and wore an outfit that would not make me freeze.  But once I stepped out to get some lunch, I just about died.  It was horrible out today. I left briefly just after noon to grab a 1/2 roasted chicken with steamed veggies for lunch, then didn't head out again until 6:30 when I left for home.  It was still freaking hot at 6:30.  It's still freaking hot now.  I like warmer weather, but I'd be happy if we had fall temperatures year round.  Comfortable to be outside, and great to run in.

My husband took one look at me
when I got home and said,
"you wore that all day?'
The a/c at work is frigid!

Today at work I had a conversation about my weight loss with a group of co-workers having lunch. They were eating pizza and salad. They asked if I would ever eat pizza again, and I said that it was highly unlikely. That brought on a lot of sad faces and "poor you" type of comments.  What others don't understand is my eating plan and the strictness of it works for me.  Someone commented that a slice of pizza wouldn't kill me. I said that I just can't go there.  It's not worth it to me.  I'd love to be the kind of person who can eat whatever I want in moderation. But with my binging past, I know that is not possible for me.  No one has to pity me though.  It's just food. In the past, I put way too much value on food.  It's important to keep me alive, yes, but it's not my entertainment or my comfort anymore.

I remember when I was nearing maintenance.  The one thing that caused me to panic was the variety of foods I should be able enjoy on maintenance.  I thought, "I can have ice-cream again" "I can have chocolate and pasta again".  And for a fleeting moment I'd feel joy that would quickly turn into fear.  I just kept thinking that I was going to continue struggling on maintenance because I'd definitely over indulge and I'd gain weight that I'd have to lose again.  Then I thought that I'd just stick to the eating plan I was following but indulge once per week after a long run.  That sounded too much like a reward to me and I swore I'd never reward myself with food again.

It wasn't until I committed to following Paleo for maintenance that I felt calm and at ease again. Paleo is black and white.  There is no grey area.  It's simple and structured, and it was exactly what I needed.  It was truly my "aha" maintenance moment.  So when people feel the need to pity me for my diet, don't.  I actually like the way I eat.  I'm never hungry, I'm full of energy, and I've never felt better.  And I'm in complete control of my eating.  That is really important for me and makes me feel safe.  So when I get asked what will make me a successful maintainer, it means never letting food control me again.

Dinner was a simple salad with chicken breast, tomatoes,
onion and avocado.

My eats for today.

13 comments:

  1. Hi Leigh - I have learned so much about Canadians and Canada from the Bloggers like yourself that reside North of the USA. Canada gets hot and humid...who knew? You know who I feel sorry for? The ones who need food to entertain themselves on a daily/hourly basis. Because I've been there, done that, bought the t-shirt, and wore the necklace:) They are sort of enslaved to this notion that eating pizza and other foods equates to happy lives. You are the one who is free. They don't know what real freedom is. (Said the fellow member of the Paleo cult;)

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  2. I'm with you - maintenance for me long term is paleo, clean, and moderation. It's the only way I will maintain for life. However, I do have times (like a summer festival or something) where I will throw a little caution to the wind. I try to aim for 95% of the year being spot on, though!

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  3. I totally understand your outfit. My office is freezing and my husband keeps our house freezing. I'm not a fan of humidity and this week we've been suffering with it. Ugh. Have a great run Saturday.

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  4. I feel for you on the humidity. I vacationed a lot in Canada when I was a kid living in central Indiana. Humid city. Tough to get a work out, even in the AM. Glad you are getting it done!

    Oh, yeah! Eating from a Paleo/Primal food template- very, very clean (between the food sensitivity and the emotional eating) has been the very best tool EVER for long term weight maintenance.

    Not only weight maintenance, but my best overall health EVER. Totally under used as tools in weight maintenance. Think how many more people would have long term maintenance if a clean, whole foods, tough not moderate approach were used.

    Awesomeness overall and I'm glad you are blogging about it. I won't be eating pizza, cupcakes, or frosting again- and I'm not to sad about it. The full life without the brain fog, weight gain, and overall health effects were sad. This is a better life.

    You are not alone. Onward!

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  5. I totally get what you are saying - feeling in control beats their bit of pizza any day! I had this discussion with my friend today and we both agree that we don't feel like we are missing out on anything. I am not an "everything in moderation" person. Can't do it. One cake leads to another etc. The thing these people don't understand though is that you stop wanting that kind of food! I know I just don't crave it any more. I sometimes make my "primal" pizza and really enjoy it but may not make another for six months. It does not start a craving for pizza because it is made entirely by me, with healthy ingredients. You are doing so well - I love that you went Paleo.

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  6. Hi Leigh, I actually get so irritated with people commenting on the way I eat, I never say a word about how they eat all the junk still they feel the need to comment...very irritating. I usually stick to my calorie count and portion control, I'm a 95% clean eater still I hear all these things, nobody understands I'm happy the way I eat, I feel happy being able to say no to food that is going to take me away from my fitness goals..

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  7. I hear you on this one. I don't go around telling people how they're not really healthy eating fast food for 2 meals a day EVERY day whether they're skinny or not. WHy comment on how I eat?

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  8. I agree with you on the humidity, Leigh. It feels like there is no air movement at all but then when you go inside offices, it is freezing!

    I love the water, water, water at the bottom of your food journal! Especially in this weather, it is a requirement. :)

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  9. We had a slightly cooler 'breeze' last night after a quick storm here in the nation's captial but it's still nasty/sticky in the mornings. We should get a break and lower temps on Sunday (I hope!).

    A colleague and I were on the receiving end of a similar pizza in the office issue as well. We opted out of the big boss giving us pizza as a reward for a job well done but the other staff just didn't and couldn't understand what the big deal was.

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  10. Great job on your eats! Nice blog you have here :)

    http://therealfoodrunner.blogspot.com

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  11. No pace is ever pathetic because the fact is that you are running girl! That's more than most do - including me at this stage of the game. You look fantastic.

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  12. It's very hot here in Minnesota, as well. I don't do well in the heat, so I'm waiting for a break in the weather so I can walk outside. I understand what you mean about being an anxious eater. I am too, so I dread having to make food for the family at get-togethers or holidays. I have difficulty having some of it in the house. Keeping it simple is wise, and I must say that you look wonderful!

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  13. I thought I left a comment but I must have gotten interrupted and went on to something else. You are so right that having a plan and sticking to it brings peace of mind. When I veer off as I did in Austin, the weight starts going up immediately and I have to quickly adjust. Those people who think we give up so much may never understand that for us, it is totally worth it. It is hot as blazes here but that's southern Arizona in the summer. :(

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